one step forward, three steps back

It's come to th point where im going to have to break out of the bubble im trapped within (as one friend puts it) and come to accept myself. But what if i dont want to? What if im never going to find happiness within myself? As Oscar Wilde puts it in The Importance of Being Earnest "The good end happily, and the bad unhappily. That is what fiction means" but isn't it possible in reality for everyone to find their happy ever after... I seem to attract bad look, even when i try to be positive. What hope is there? I say this with a laugh, as this is more likely to keep sane.